I just had a rather surreal conversation with my grandmother. Especially considering how she raked me over the coals at my 'birthday party'.....

She sent me an email today saying, "I am sending this to you, and be sure to read to the end where they talk about Migraines, and what has helped some people.
How are you doing? I haven't heard from you lately. I know you are having to endure, but you know what they say, "When you're going through hell, just keep going." I love you. Grandmother"

*puts on "Only Makes Me Laugh" by Oingo Boingo* I love this song, and when I'm feeling particularly bad about my situation, it sort of cheers me up. Anyway...

She told me that a) she thought that it was wonderful that I still had my sense of humor ("Aside from the chronic migraine, the back pain, the leg pain and partial hemiparesis, my depression, [at which point, I started to laugh] the PTSD, the OCD, and the generalized anxiety disorder, I'm doing great!") b) she told me that she thought I was really strong, maybe even stronger than I am aware, and c) she said that she was "proud of me" for how well I was doing. Doing well? Well, I'm still here, so I guess.... but I really feel that all I'm doing right now is waiting, trying to survive until I can see the doctor - I see the psychiatrist on the 26th, and the primary care physician on the 30th. And that's before I can get into the pain clinic and start remedicating myself - hopefully the PCP will prescribe *something* for my pain until I can get into the clinic.

*smiles as "Happy" spins up on iTunes* This song cheers me up, too. "I read the paper, I saw the news - all those people are excited, why don't they just relax? All they gotta do is kick back, kick back and be happy - happy, happy that the whole world is ready to blow. I'm happy that I made it through another day, that when I pick up the phone, I still remember what to say, I'm happy that my brain still lives inside my head, but most of all, I think I'm happy that I ain't dead...."

Anyway, I'm just kinda shocked that my grandmother said so many positive things about me. It's a rare thing, y'know?